Shutterfly...the new best online photography site!

SOOO ladies and men while sitting in class and being completely bored about urbanism and political geography for the day I was chatting with another milspouse and she turned me onto the most amazing thing ever invented! Shutterfly! I know you ladies like pictures and who doesnt print off pictures and loads of them!! Well, here is the best website avaliable...GOO check it out and happy shutterflying!! www.shutterfly.com

United

So this whole non-profit is really weighing very heavy on my heart, I dont know if it from the simple gravity of the issue, but the simple step towards my dream is coming true. I want to leave my legacy in this world of helping end slavery. WHICH still occurs and there are more slaves in this world now then there were during the slave trade routes of Africa in the 1700's and 1800's. Human smuggling shouldnt be a main business venture for some people. I want my children to be able to grow up and to tell my grandchildren that their grandmother helped children like them be able to live their childhood. Because the end of slavery is the beginning of equality. Thats UNITY. IT BEGINS WITH U N I! So if your interested in helping me when I launch this organization then by all means do, but you must understand that the beginning of equality is unity and unity means to work together. DONT get me wrong at times I might seem hard, but to be honest this is a hard subject that we are fighting against. ONE person can help make that difference but it begins with U N I standing United! OK sorry my moment is over...thanks for reading!

Dreams and inspirations

How do I put into writing my most inner secret of what I really want to do? I might as well let that secret no longer harbor, because well its bugging me to much. I have some people who I have already told and who have encouraged me as well as helped me down that path.
I want to start an non-profit organization for the end of Human Trafficking! Through all the years of my studies of Human Rights as well this one thing has really struck my heart. The exploitations of women and children has really been a driving force for me to help end. The name of my organization I will keep under wraps, but the other day I applied for my first grant. As well as a little more research on being able to end such a horrific thing in the world. For No one should be enslaved against their will.

"I'm here America"

Veterans Day, something that everyone might take for granted, but to those of us who are in the military community. It's a day to remember those of your loved ones you lost or the ones who are currently serving as well as those who happen to be veterans and who make an impact on your life everyday.
The interesting thing today after checking up on a lot of status on facebook was a dear friend of mine, whose boyfriend happens to be in Korea. She stated the one phrase that has tugged at my heart strings. "Thank you for unselfishly saying "I'm here" when America needs you." Is the one phrase that she stated. My eyes misted up for the simple factor that this is something that all loved ones live with on a daily basis. That simple unselfish commitment of "yes I am here America," when they called upon you to serve. I am honored to be surrounding by men and women in my life who have done just that. I feel almost unworthy sometimes to be in their lives for the simple unselfish act. My heart goes out to those in my life who have stood up to invading or threating acts of violence to America and said, "No, I will not allow this." Or how Patrick Henry once stated, "Don't Tread on me!" This statement is one that rings out when the US may call these men and women to duty.

So a personal Thank you: Mark Waters (My amazing Husband whose heart is worth more than his weight in gold!), My father Jim Williams, my little brother in law Paul Waters, my father-in-law Mike Waters, my brother Eric Williams, Aaron Trimble, Michael Bell, Joshua Sasser, John Brewer, Jacob Rouse, Matt Garvin, Jarod Peters, Joshua Laabs, Brandi & Kent Bergeron, as well as many others! Thank you for making that unselfish commitment!

"Your husband is the reason why the US is in Debt!"

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO here I go and if I upset someone else then I wont be shocked after you read this. The boys and I were shopping today to get some groceries and well I happen to wearing a tshirt that said my heart is deployed. Which I completely forgot I had on. One of my favorite shirts, by the way. So back to my episode. forgive me for my rabbit trail there!? OK I happen to be searching for the best ground chuck and some lady attempted to hit my buggy and I was like WHOAA. She said she was sorry, then she looks at my shirt and goes, "Is your husband deployed?" My smartalic side wanted to go no I just wear this shirt for fun, but I was civil and said, "yes ma'am." Then went about my business and then she said, "you know you and your family are the reason why this country is in the debt is in." I said, "EXCUSE ME!" Rather upset now. I looked her squarely in the eye and my oldest said, "OH no." and turned away not to look at my face. She then goes on to say, "Your husband especially is the main part of the problem as to why the US is in debt."
"WOW, really you honestly think that my husband is the main part of the misguided choiced of his former commander-in-chief was given?"
"Well, yes."
"Ma'am, frankly your about the most inappreciative person I know, and not only that my husband is not the reason why the US is in debt. The reason why the US is in debt is because Bush didn't rotate our economy into a war time economy but left it as a consumer economy and so we spiraled out of control. But the next time you want to verbally assault someone in public get your facts straight! But ya know what, your taxs are paying for my grocery bill and not only that but the next time you attempt to disrespect my husband ever again, just think this My husband defends your right to flap your trap and disrespect him and his men. So while my husband defends your right to run your mouth, I am left at home to bandage my boys knees and tuck them in alone and help dry eyes because they miss their daddy and want to know when he will be home. SO UNTIL you get your facts straight or actually gain a little compassion Do not ever attempt to approach me again if you ever happen to see me again."

As I walked away every single person who was standing around me applauded me and some ladies hugged me. I was sooo rialed up!! Then my son was so sweet and looked at me and said, "Mommy, her mommy must have not taught her respect, huh" I was shocked he recognized that, because I have been teaching him about respect lately.

Soo now that I am done venting about idiots in walmart. I gotta go write some papers!

life as I know it

Well, life as I know is just a little crazy right now. My emotions are going haywire like usual around this time of the year, only thing is that Mark wont be here for me to cry to at night. My heart is not here to help...*sniff* *Sniff*

ok so before I become emotional again below is something interesting on watching the world and us population which is cool..

http://www.census.gov/main/www/popclock.html

Another link which is put on by the BBC it shows you just how big something somewhere in the world is compared to your home or cite. REALLY fun for nerds like me!!

www.howbigreally.com

OK so now that I have had my nerd moment. I need to focus on class a little more before my professor gets aggravated at me.

CIAO for now!!

hmm

I happen to be reading through a few past post and realized just how airheaded I might sound to someone who might barely know me. I do apologize for I fear that I might have misled some individuals. I am not as airheaded as my writings may let onto, but I tend to get excited when I write and so thus begins the airheaded SOOO and ummms and OMGGGGG and all of those...

WhEW ok thats out of the way.

Today is hump day, just in case your living under a rock somewhere, and mine hasnt really an easy hill to climb so to speak. Today my youngest got 6 shots and he was whimpering on and off afterwards which in turn broke my heart. Then my oldest was being so insistant on being a button pusher. He wouldnt listen to anything I told him to do or go to do anything I told him to do. Class well, class was mentally intense for me today and it was an easy subject too! I think my brain just didnt want to function with me. I think its because of all these articles I happen to be reading for class and for the papers.

OH and welcome to my new followers you guys rock!!

another Monday

Yes its another dreaded Monday, but ya know this morning didnt seem as dreaded as prior ones have. I woke up this morning rather earlier than usual so I set out to do my P90x. OH this P90x isnt the easiest one that they have out there. This one is the one my dh brought home on Leave.. THE FREE one!! YAY for free, but boo to the level. It happens to be the extreme one. NEED I remind everyone I havent really worked out in about OH lets say about 2 to 3 years back when I really was trying to loose all this baby weight from my first set of multiples, and yes you read that right first set. Ill explain that later, but first P90x and I are mortal enemies SWORN mortal enemies as my body hates me and my mind is going oooo you feel great. My legs are going IF YOU DONT QUIT we will stop working all together. That would be my luck to loose mobilty while I walk and fall flat on my face...go figure my life would end up in an epic fail moment for the history books. So I am sitting here waiting on class to begin and I happen to be here 3 hours before class begins, I am such a dork to get here that early. I just want my good seat I lost 3 weeks ago when I stopped coming to class because DH came home. I know I am a slacker when he is around sometimes, but all I wanted to do was to be near him and no one else except my kids and family. SOOO now that life has resumed as normal (whats normal?) then I will get off here so I can finish doing some stuff for class I skipped 3 weeks ago.

Ciao

We arent in this business for the "Thank you's"

So while I sit here listening to both my boys snoring away in their beds I am reminded of what happened recently to me. I went to eat lunch at our favorite resturant and was enjoying a quiet lunch alone like usual lately...a couple walked in and well I really began to look at them. It was unique to watch them, because well, they were a military couple. Navy to be exact..SN: GO ARMY!..I got to watch what it looked like as a military couple from the outside. Upon being done I walked over and told him thank you, shook his hand and he was shocked I figured out he was military. The saying my mother once said, "You see one, you know them all." I then turned to his wife and thanked her for her support of him. She was taken back and thanked me. I walked out of the resturant and was on my way to my car when I heard. MA'AM I turned to see his wife. She walked over to me and said, "He is deployed isnt he?" I never once told her I was an Army wife. I said yes. She gave me the biggest most sincere hugs I have ever received. She looked at me and goes Thank you! I almost cried getting into the car. I do hear people asking me to tell my husband thank you for them, but its a rarity to get a thank you for supporting a soldier or sailor, or even airmen! It was just much sweeter from another spouse who knew what was going on without even having to strike up a conversation. Before she turned she looked me square in the eyes and said, "How are you doing?" She said I can see the sleeplessness in your eyes. I smirked a little and said sleep, whats sleep? She smiled hugged me again and said darling thank you! And walked away. I really am not in this line of work being a wife for the thank yous nor is my dh in it for it either. He does it for the simple fact of the freedoms that everyone of us takes for granted. He is really humbled when someone tells him thank you as am I, hence the teary eyes earlier...SOOO to all the other milies out there "Thank you and How are you doing?"

I was sitting in class yesterday and I looked up to see someone who resembled a very very close friend of mine who was killed in fallujah. He laughed like Kev and goes you look like you have seen a ghost. The scary thing is that he laughed like Kevin. De jevu is a really horrid things sometimes. Our minds play horrid things on us at times. Especially when we are emotionally drained and at our emotional lowest points. So as I listen to Mariah Carey and finish this entry out I hope that everyone has a magnificent wednesday.

The Islamic Center near Ground Zero

I am honestly torn between either agreeing with the building of the Islamic center. Its rather hard to personally in my heart to say yes for this center to be built, for my husband fights EVERY single day against the extremist of Islam. And the builidng of this building personally is a slap in the face to the Americans who were traumatized by the events of 9/11, but then in my heart I have to say well America is all about the freedom of religion and where would we be if we didnt have religious freedom hundreds of years ago? Burning at the stake like our ancestors. Yes, Islam is a newer religion in America and I am not saying that we need to be hypervigilant, but to my knowledge Islam is about peace. EVERY single religion has their own extremist. Yes, the extremist of Islam carried out their hadith and wrecked havoc on a super power. But the interesting aspect of this whole thing is that WE are waging a war against Islamic extremist and their jihad, but not against the Islamic religion. That atatement alone is how I feel about this whole thing. Why are we fighting against a peaceful religion where they want to worship? People say that is it sacred land that they are attempting to build on, but have they google earthed that block and to see just what is around the corner from where they want to build their mosque? It happens to be a strip club and 3 bars? What is so scared about strip clubs and bars?
So all in all is America changing its values on religion? No this nation was founded on religious freedom and to be able to practice without persecution. Those are the fundamental values of the nation I call home, so I stand behind the ideal of the mosque building, but not without a very heavy heart. Do Americans fear what is not the everyday norm for them? I do believe so!!

IF anyway I have offended anyone on my personal views from this post then I am sorry, but this is strickly a blog on my thoughts!! I will not keep the things I wish to talk to my husband about, but cant from my blog which was designed in the first place to vent or post my ideas, or emotional breakdowns while he is deployed! If you do not agree with my politically CONGRATULATIONS you just practiced your American Rights which were given to you!! Now just think on what I have said, you dont have agree. I know a lot of people may not agree with me. I still love all my followers..you guys make life interesting!!

today is just one of those days

Soo as the title protrayed today just happens to be one of those days were I wanna just sit down and cry. I am so tired from this past labor day weekend. I enjoyed my time with my in-laws down in Louisana, but I am just physically exhausted from everything that happened and to be honest there wasnt much we did!! My son went fishing for the first time in his life with his Poppi and it was soo sweet. He came in with such a defeated look for not catching anything!! SUCH a fisherman!! lol, sad thing is he will never be fishing with his momma nor his dad!! Soooo I am sitting in class and yet have had lunch because the resturant on campus DIDNT want to make my food because there were the same thing in the grab and go but YET didnt tell me they wouldnt make my order, I didnt want a pizza from there because well it was BURNT....I am soo livid about this!! I might pass out in classes this afternoon from their inablitity to be able to get off their lazy butt and just make me a new one!! I ordered a new one, NOT an old one!! Plus I am so tired of just surviving while waiting for my husband to come home from Iraq and I really wish he was just home! Yet tomorrow maybe a whole other day, and understand that what I sacrifice for the freedom of every other American and what my husband goes through is for that as well. BUT I DONT WANNA THINK THAT TODAY...I WANT MY HUSBAND HOME SO I HAVE SOMEONE TO CRY ON THEIR SHOULDER TO HAVE HELP WITH EVERYTHING!! I am just tired of all these professors arguing about the war and Iraq and afghanistan and I JUST WANT HIM HOME NOW!!! I know after this rant I will just pull myself back together like I always do and will soldier on and deal with life like I always do.

YAY

27 DAYS TILL I SEE MY HUSBAND!!!

That is all for today..I really cant talk because well if I get going I would be able to stop and you would be bored after probably about the first 3 sentences!!

Last semester of my college career

OHHH wow!! So my last semester is here. GOSH!! Is really all I can say.

I got to be on the radio show again!! YAY!!! SOO gotta get to studying for class on Monday!!

http://www.thetakeaway.org/2010/aug/19/pull-out-iraq-tale-two-wives/

Sorry I havent written in ages

SOO life? Hmm well lets see its rather intense right now!! I am attempting to get everything so that my son may start 4k!!! *sniff* *sniff* *sniff* My baby is growing up and I dont know if I can handle that!? My little man is so grown up!
OK I gotta write about something else because well I might start crying. OH on that note, crying that seemingly happens to be the only thing I do now a days since I lost the babies.
WOW this is just about the most depressing blog entries today! Ok so my husbands come home in about a MONTH!!! OHHH MYYY GOSHHHH I am oober excited!!
SO I have watching desperate housewives as I sit here and enjoy the absolute silence of two sleeping little boys!! That was a feet though.
SO I am also on this trip of finding a new recipe and making it at least 3 nights a week! So far I am 5-1..There was one that when it came out looked weird, but we soldiered on! IT WAS SOOO GROSS!! The only thing that was something that ok and was the chicken. It was salvageable, but the rest...well let's just say I love having a sink disposal in our apt because that night it saw A LOT of action and that's not typical of every night!

home at last..

OK so I got home last week but it took me about a week to revive myself after that REALLY long roadtrip. I enjoyed time with the boys and they got pretty use to being in their seats for long periods of time which I was happy for, but I will say one thing DVD's saved my life with my oldest one which who happened to my mouthy one! HA.. So gotten to that point in the deployment where apparently EVERYTHING ticks each other off and we always argue. I am soo tired of arguing and I mean just the littlest thing from a smartalic comment to well just a flip statement can really set off a horrible fight..But ya know I still love him like there is nothing left but I am just tired of it all...I hope everyone had a nice a relaxing 4th and enjoyed your time together! so tonight is a ghost hunters night so you guys have a great day!

WYOMING!!!

OK so we are in WYOMING NOW!! THANK GOD that we are out of MONTANA...Ok i love the state could careless about most of the attitudes of the people there! THEN entire time we were there was poopy! Other than seeing the Yellowstone national park and Old Faithful gyser! WAY cool! The boys are being jewels thus far. Only a few hiccups with lost bottles, which thankfully were under the seat! WHEW. My new car is soo pretty too! I love it. So ill update whenever possible and when I get home Ill rearrange the blog, because heaven knows its ugly and needs some updating so Ill releave your eyes once I am home!

The Obama Deception HQ Full length version

watch it and think!!!

crazy summers

So we just got back a couple hours ago from Pensacola, FL and all the beachyness!! The really sad thing was..that faint smell of oil that was in the air. Although you cant see the oil or tarballs the smell was there!! ALso I have never seen so much emotional wawa as I have today. I serious have no idea what is going on with that..There was also some information about some family stuff that has put this FOUL taste in my mouth about some family members who I completely saw in a totally different light, which was a put on by the way. That makes me sick, because I never ever have been anything but me around my family and ya know what? I get this and learn this info...GOSH..ok so t-minus 2 days till our vacation or my insanity trip!! CRAZYNESS..Im excited but not even packed yet...I am soo burnt from the beach that I dont wanna move from the pain. I know im being a baby, but at least about my own personal pain and not about something someone said..touche!! Soo you guys have a great night and thanks for reading....

sorry my mind is just popping tonight!!

So i happened to be watching Army wives tonight...IM TOTALLY addicted! Sad I know, but then I heard Taps. Well, to those who read my blog and are military wives know what happens when that plays. Your heart strings are tugged at in the worst possible way! Then I remember a few weeks ago in our church a man who if you didnt know him would never know was there since he was just that peaceful! An amazing quality, but my dh and I sat behind this man and he was also prior service and when Mark deployed our church laid hands on him. Mr. Beard was suffering from cancer and he was in horrid pain, that never stopped him from coming to church. He might have started tearing up from the pain, but never stopped him from being there which was an amazing thing! So when they laid hands on Mark. I saw Mr. Beard slowly stand up and walk slowly up to the front of the church and laid hands on my dh, which brought me to tears. Not only because my church wrapped their arms around my husband but because this man knew the sacrifice personally he was about to make. So every single sunday or day he saw me he would ask how is your husband? To me that meant the world. A couple of weeks ago he passed away from the cancer that wrecked havic on his life. I attended his funeral for the family and at the end at the interment of his body, they first played the firefighter song and last they played Taps. I was emotionally low that day and happened to emotionally just let the floodgates go. I felt like a child, but the service was a very sweet service. So I just wanted to say to never let those small relationships that you think maybe nothing but to one person may mean to world. For his widow told me at his wake that he thought the world of my husband and he prayed for him on a daily basis..Ok seriously I am done ranting to telling things for tonight..

I dont know if this is going to turn into a rant or a venting, so please just bear with me! After these last couple of days I feel like a doormat!! SO I have this friend who has been through several surgeries and all of course with her dh in iraq with mine. Well, lets start all over at the beginning. While doing some training was happening for our dh we would check in with each other occassionally and well vent about our rough spots. The only thing is I tend to bottle all mine up until a breaking point so it really was mostly her venting, which I had and have no issues with other wives venting..if you need to release tension or vent due to stress then I am always an open ear or a shoulder that you may need to cry on. But one day I happened to have a really tough day and I happened to break down and cry while talking to her. SHE immediately called her dh after getting off the phone with me and told him to find my dh and to call home immediately because it was an emergency. He went and found my dh while in a briefing and pulled him out and told him to call me. My dh and I have this understanding as does anyone in the military life that if they dont answer right away when they get a moment they will respond. That caused a HUGE fight between me and my dh. He calmed down after I started explaining things and well was pissed off. SOOOOO lets speed up just a couple weeks. She has surgery and a massive one without her dh by her side, which at times we all know that will happen! She then goes through several hiccups in her recovery period. Then she had to have another surgery and apparently got some horrible news that was an emergency. So I then attempted to contact my dh and ask him if he had seen hers. He said no and then apparently it got worse well I was really concerned for her. I tried contacting her to see what she needed since she I dont know where she lives. OK SO GET THIS today on her fb page she post that she was planning vacation!! VACATION people!! There is other history inbetween there that I would rather leave out..so I am tired of the dramatic wanna be premadonna tiara wanna wearing prissyness this chica has going on..I almost wanna slap that thing off her head right now! Thats how aggravated I am right now...ok so I am shutting up if any of you ladies have ever had this issue please advice would be nice...thanks!

Cute Pictures...a little bragging moment!!

This picture is a month or two old but I thought it was awesome!!
There are pictures of Aarons birthday and I thought it was sweet so I added them to show off my younguns..

WHY oh WHY?

So I am packing for my trip which happens to be like a week and half away and well, I am about to nuts! WHY IN THE WORLD DO THESE SUITCASES have to be so BLOOMING small? So while im sitting here watching the world cup opening concert and mentally thinking what all I may need for this trip, I am going to just about as bonkers as anyone else would be. The boys are completely packed, as for me well, thats a different story!
OH by the way did you hear about nelson mandella's granddaughter who was murdered after she was coming home from a fifa soccer concert and that was about one of the saddest things I have heard. A man who forged the forfront for peace in a turmous nation was executed on the land her grandfather fought so hard to unite! Isn't futbol about connected people across their cultural boundaries? Her murder will be hushed for the amount of people who are coming in as to not scare them. I am so proud though, because for the first time in the history of AFRICA the WORLD cup is being held there! An amazing step forward for a countinent that has been plauged by nothing but horrible horrid things. DONT get me wrong there are great things that have happened in Africa, but this is something that Africa has needed for a long time..

MY 1st BLOGGER AWARD!!!! YAY

Thanks so much to Bridgette Cole for this award!

here's the rules
Thank the person who gave you the award

Share seven (7) things about you
Nominate Seven newly discovered blogs that you think are fantastic. Let your nominees know about the award


Seven Things About Me

1. I absolutely despise mornings, yet I have 2 morning bugs in my home...

2. I have a sick obession with facebook.

3. I tend to somewhat come across as an individual who doesnt take snot off anyone to a lot of my friends, but really I am harmless.

4. SO I am on this new lets try something new for dinner instead of my everyday easy cooking.

5. When I tried to walk in a straight line next to someone I end up walking right up on top of them, but I don't even realize it.

6. I graduate in Dec!!!!

7. I have this massive obession with Ancient Egypt.

Here's who I nominate

djaxon

Tiffany Swindlehurst

Bridgette Cole (I know you nominated me, but you rock)

Ashleigh

Nittani

mrs.wood

Mrs. DFL

Its going...

SOOO I am tired of waking up every morning and seeing what I see in the mirror!! THATS it!! ITS GOING..the weight that is. I have been rather depressed and sitting on my butt for the last two weeks as my children play around me and I realized I wanna see my children grow up and to be able to keep up with them. SOOO I am buying the p90x workout plan and as soon as I get back from my trip which is about the time it should arrive!! IM getting started!! I post pictures, which before now I would never take body pictures of myself. I gotta document this! SOO ladies and my dh I need motivating, words of encouragement. I know there will be days when I dont wanna do it, so anything will help!! Other than that Life has been uneventful other than my vacation starts in 13 days!! YAYNESS...Or do you call it pure madness, oh well madness or not I will be getting my new car in 13 days too! YES!! alright so I am shutting up now and going to sleep. ITS late!!

Waka Waka (This Time for Africa) (The Official 2010 FIFA ...

SOO after watching this video...I realized just how I put my dreams of helping African children has well been put on the back burner for our life in the military. Hard to sit there and realize your dreams are very dim...

Thank You Soldiers - Veteran's Day/Memorial Day Song

One of the sweetest songs I have ever found..I do hope you enjoy!! It made me cry so be careful without tissue around!!

"I Like a Boy" featuring Leah, Mims, Obama Girl...

US Military Tribute - Far Away - Nickleback

SOOO sorry for not posting lately

So lately I have had no motivation for doing anything lately. I guess I have been somewhat depressed lately. I really miss my husband, such is the life of an army wife I guess! So my DH found out that his original unit is deploying 4 months after he comes home from Iraq to Afghanistan!! SERIOUSLY!! OMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG so I get 4 months with my dh and he is then to return to war!! I really hope nothing happens to him. He is my best friend as well as my lover and I honestly cant imagine what I would do if something ever happened to him!
SOO on a more haha my oldest told me that when he closes his eyes he has a girl dream. So of course I had to ask more questions. I was like about what? Like dolls? EWWW noo mom a girl!! I see this girl in my dreams. HELLOOO HE IS 4 years old!! When did he grow up and he is way to young to be imagining girls in his dreams!
SO when friday rolls around my mom and I are gonna go watch a movie..letters to juliet. YAYNESS!!

GRAY hair!!

So now that I am coming off my emotional high of the interview. I think I am just going to really chill this summer!! Other the road trip that I will be doing on my own with my two young ones will be the adventure of well a lifetime, which afterward will keep my hair stylist in business with all those gray hairs she is gonna have to cover when I return! OHHH by the way I found my first gray hair the other day. My four year old was like umm mommy are you getting old? I told him nope just wiser with age. He then giggled his little giggle and said well mimi must be the wisest one around. SHE has a lot of those gray hairs. OHH the antics of a child.
So this morning after the interview I fell back asleep and well off in wonderland dreaming about who knows what, when my dreams were halted by my child going MOMMY Levi STINKS BAD!! Please before I suffocate change his diaper. I rolled over half groggy and mumbled something and well fell back asleep. He then comes back in my room crawls into our bed and said, "mommy, now don't get mad at me, but I tried fixing levi's stinky diaper and it didnt work." THAT woke me up. I asked him what he did and he then looks at me with the MOST serious look and said, "mommy, you know that new febreeze stuff you bought? I sprayed it on Levi's diaper and it now just spells like FLOWERY pooo, please come change him." I laughed and walked in there and sure enough that was some flowery pooo. With his hand over his nose he goes SEE told you he STINKS OF FLowers and POOO as he was running out of the room as if he had just experienced the gas chamber. WOW, where would we be without the innocent humor of our children?

SO welcome to my 2 newest followers!! Thanks for joining me.. You may think I am crazy, I am just deprived of my soulmate which has seemingly made me look at life a whole lot differently since the army took him away. Hope you enjoy and feel free to comment away!!

I love to hear what my followers have to say about what you read here!!

the interview!!

http://www.thetakeaway.org/2010/may/14/obama-sticks-to-plan-iraq-troop-drawdown-despite-obstacles/ ok so here is the interview!! YAYYY exciting!!

5 minutes of fame

SOO tomorrow morning at the absolute butt crack of dawn that I NORMALLY never see I will be a guest on a radio show that airs in NY and London, I think, but mainly in America and the website is thetakeaway.org so I AM OOOBBEERRR excited. I just talk about my life as a military spouse dealing with deployment. Which I have plenty of stories!! OK so im shutting up now and ill post the full link after it is added!! SOO yea im excited now!!

just a funny..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=haHXgFU7qNI&feature=player_embedded

Hope you guys enjoy this..found it on milspouse.com and well its funny and after all of my studies for finals I needed a laugh!! hope you enjoy!!

crazyest...if thats even a word....month of my life

Soo I had a wild month so far. That might by why I haven't posted in a while, so to start off the month I was in California for my grandmother's funeral..LOVED her to pieces and well still do and I really miss her dearly! She was a very well how do I put this the best grandmother any girl could want, but of course I do know that everyone is a partial to theirs!! IF you weren't I would feel sad because everyone should!!! Then one of the most tragic things that has ever happened in my life other than loosing Aaron's twin brother during delivery. I had a miscarriage, and well it took me a couple weeks to tell my husband who happens to be in Iraq, IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY NOTICED, and when I did he was crushed and sad as any parent would be. He asked me if I wanted him to come home. I told him no, because he is scheduled r&r is for when Levi's 1st birthday is on. I would rather celebrate the life of the children we already have instead of mourning the loss of one who wasn't meant to live in this world. God has greater plans for that little one!! Then I had the journal project from hades!! grrr that was horrid!! Then someone defaced personal property of a professor and well that caused MAJOR heartache for everyone!!! WHO in college defaces a book? MY 4 year old knows not to do that to books!! People are getting crazyier!! OH then to top it all off my husband's mrap hit an IED this week..I just about paniced because I thought something was wrong with him. So between my husbands truck hitting that IED and my miscarriage and the funeral!! I think this month has just about drove me bonkers!!! IM SOO GLAD its almost over!!

One day down is one day closer till I get to hold my soul mate!!

YAY

YAY I HAVE 5 followers...I feel loved!! haa..

hmm where to start

Sooo to my few small group of 4 followers sorry I have posted lately just been kinda of well bummed I guess you would say. I am about to go CRAZY because well my inlaws are bringing over some furniture which well I dont care for the color, but my MIL really wants this couch she saw which why not make someone else happy...One day someone somewhere will need that couch and arm chair!! TILL then it will be my headache, that or I just might tell the PCS movers to LOOSE them on purpose!! I really cant figure out how I am going to mix green and red christmas plaid colors with ANYTHING of my style!! They of course will be great at CHristmas time. OH did I MENTION THESE things survived I think its 7 to 9 moves with the Navy prior to our inheritance of them! HAAA well they always say they dont make things like they use too! Sooo in fond words of my MIL her migraine of 30+ years will soon become my migraine...great is all I can say!!
On a side note had a skype date with the DH last night and OMG was it good to see him! He has lost sooo much weight too. He left at around 200 he is now a whopping
one sixty something...HELLOOOO He was already a bag of bones.."To bad my kisses dont have any calories and if they did I would have to figure out how to send some!!" famous words of Aunt Colleen!! Which by the way is a rockstar as well as my other new Aunt Linda!! Any women who can teach my son how to poke the eyeballs out of a crawfish and not get queezy is a rockstar in my book!!
Oh yea going on a road trip this summer!! WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO with my mom..yay!! So if you guys dont hear from me by july 4th gets scared and worried! I love my mom but 2 weeks in a car with both my boys...am I just crazy or is this deployment really getting to me!! MY route is from Seattle, WA near Ft Lewis down to san diego then straight back across to mississippi..I happen to be going to pick up our new car!! YAYNESS!! I love that thing too!! I am sooo tired of my old eclipse..I am scared its gonna fall apart on me!! OHH wait go ahead fall apart..Ill just go get it sooner!! WHOOO HOOOO...ok so ill shut up for now..YOu ladies have a great night!!

One more day gone is one more day closer till I am in his arms again!!

One interesting day

So this morning started off rather interesting, I live in South Mississippi. One would think that living here that one would fell a tad safer with all the rednecks who drive around with shotguns in the back windows and knives under their seats. Well apparently these two ladies didn't get that memo, as I drove past them this morning and they had their little ear buds in listening to music and well they were carrying crow bars!! CROW BARS people!! Seriously when did women in south Mississippi need to carry crow bars to walk in the daylight and in a relatively nice neighborhood at that too.

So I heard from Mark today and well he hates this new unit he is attached too. He is a very nice passive person and well our relationship is a very democratic relationship and when it comes to the paycheck on the first one I pay all the bills with it, and with the second one well that's where I do the savings with. So instead of bouncing any bills I paid he will send me a blackberry message and ask me if a certain amount is ok to buy at the PX. I don't care if he buys anything, but the guys think he doesn't have a backbone and I need to be put in my "place." He is just so anti-arguing that he just vents to me. I told him to just tell them that he does wear the pants I just control the zipper. He laughed and well, was like naw I should just tell them that after he gets his commission that he just might get orders to be their officer. I don't think that will shut them up at all. I think the suggestion of what I said would be better. Plus he got moved to gunner permanently for this deployment!! So he stands up there for 12 hours plus without a break and when all the other guys get a million smoke breaks he is told that he has to keep the trucks running right while they all smoke and then they yell at him if he does something wrong. It is getting a little intense and something where I just wanna smack one of them!! It is really starting to piss me off but I can't do a thing about it, because its his job.. I guess that is my rant for the night..I maybe back later!!

ugh

DEAR DEPLOYMENT,
you suck, you suck, you suck, and did I mention YOU SUCK!!!

Sincerely,
me

P.S. I want my husband home!!!

mental block

So for the past 5 years I have been in college and on the verge of graduation I seemingly have lost all focus and motivation to finish at all! I really have like no care to finish, I know this is just a little vent! I really missed Mark today, it was weird because I haven't heard anything whatsoever from him which is rather weird! He normally sends me a blackberry message at least once a day. It has been a whole two days!! I'm getting lonely not talking to my best friend and soul mate!
The kiddos are well going BONKERS! The oldest one especially! He knows his birthday party is Saturday and has been extremely mischievous around the house. He has been snooping worse then his father does! I woke up at 4 am to hearing rustling noises in my bedroom near my closet. OF course when your husband is deployed you get extra nervous about those noises!! So I rolled over and crawled under my blanket and etched towards the end of the bed only to see my son attempting to open the closet door without making a noise. It took me a minute to see him so I started freaking out. I had something that I could have thrown, but just wanted to make sure who it was. WHEW I am so glad it was Aaron! I just about had a heart attack! OH yea if I had at least Aaron could have put to use his 911 calling skills I have been teaching him.
So did anyone see about the little girl who went missing in winter springs, FL? Her name was Nadia, she was found by a man in her church who set out alone to find her! I am excited they found her. I can only imagine what her mother and father were going through.

So here is a funny and then ill shut up!!
My apt manager and I were talking this morning and she told me that there is this computer repair lady who comes around to do all the computer upkeep on their office computers and her son who happens to have a mental disability kept calling her and telling her that there was a troll out in the front yard, which she said oh ok hunny Ill be home soon and then you can tell me all about it. Then he called back panicing and said, "Mom the troll is really mad now." She asked why and then he said that he had locked him in the closet, well she thought he was just going on like he usually does. She went home and found out that her son had locked a Jehovah witness midget in the closet. So the troll to this guy was just a midget. Which I just about fell out laughing!!

Another day gone is another day till I see my soul mate's face!!

Poor Professor

SOOO I have this professor and well all I can say is quiting anything cold turkey sucks! I feel really bad for her because well the disfunctional people in my classes happen to be the ones who get her when she is not in her happy boat and then the rants insued! HEAVEN HELP US ALL! She is a sweet lady, but definitely a different cookie; but of course who isnt a different cookie in their own form or fashion!!

Just a dandy day?

Being an Army wife has its adventures and well mine is the most interesting here lately I do believe!! So today was the craziest morning, my youngest woke up SCREAMING; thus began the Monday morning!! God bless my son, because well he is teething and so I sat straight up and well there went that ability to maybe sleep in. My 4 year old had a nightmare the night before and had wondered his way into my bed during the night..The boys miss their father just about as much as I do!! DEPLOYMENT SUCKS!! SO there is my ramble for the day..I may update this ramble a little later!